An Open Letter to Reliable Individuals

Dear Reliable Individuals,

You are few and you are difficult to find.

You are there, though. You are the ones who make a difference in the world. You are the ones who make the world a better place.

You are the ones who can be counted on, and you pride yourself on this– but you also can’t imagine NOT being reliable. It’s just how you are.

You are dependable and you wish that others were the same, but when they are not you still continue on.

You are the ones who get what needs to be done DONE when it needs to be done.

You are the ones who work hard at something even if you don’t get anything out of it except inward satisfaction (and sometimes not even that).

You are the ones who take on the extra tasks, the hard work, and sometimes make others look good because of it. You are the ones who submit what needs to be submitted, who arrive when you need to arrive, who organize what needs to be organized. You are the ones who put in effort when others dissapear.

You are not always thanked for this. When you are, the gratitude is often selfish and not genuine.

You are taken for granted by those who are unreliable. You make your own lives more difficult and others’ lives easier. No wonder you are difficult to come across.

Maybe you envy those who are unreliable, because they are able to coast through life in a way that you know you would never allow yourselves to.

It doesn’t matter to you though, because you are reliable people. You push aside lazy thoughts and keep doing what needs to be done.

Dear reliable individuals, thank you, thank you for being reliable.

Sometimes multiple reliable people meet each other, and in these rare instances an explosion of greatness echoes throughout the essence of the universe– okay, probably not– but great things happen.

Dear reliable individuals, this letter does not really mean much. It certainly is not a big enough thank you for all the things that you have done throughout your lives. Maybe you do not feel that you even deserve a thank you because being reliable is simply something that SHOULD BE and not anything extraordinary.

But you do deserve a thank you. A thank you for even existing.

The biggest of thank yous to all the reliable individuals who make the world go round on the of smallest levels, down to the minute details.

You are blessings to the universe. You are assets to the world. You are great for being you.

Keep up the good work, reliable individuals. Keep up the good work.


The Stages of Writing an Essay at the Last Minute

I really, really dislike procrastinating essays. However, sometimes it happens– usually due to me underestimating how long something will take– and when it does, it usually goes like this:

What Probably Happens at Club Parties, by Someone Who’s Never Been to One

One time last semester, CCBC actually had this CCBC-approved club party event that students were invited to. When it was mentioned in Film Society if anyone was going, there was this collective lips-pressed-thin-slow-nod-eyes-dart that indicated that mostly everyone was thinking, “mmmmmmm…. naahhh…” simultaneously. It was kind of funny, not being the only one doing this.

I’ve never been to a club party, and so what I know about them is based on very limited knowledge. (Okay, once I was in Spain and walked into a cute little night club that looked super cool, but I didn’t stay cause it was weird and awkward and I didn’t learn anything and it totally doesn’t count).  I thought that maybe it would be funny to write an article on What Probably Happens at Club Parties, by Someone Who’s Never Been to One. Let’s get started– and see how accurate or not I am. This should be amusing.

Stuff Like This

Like, flirty dancing stuff where people make eye contact with each other to try and get each other’s attention.


Crowded Dancing in a Room That Smells Like Humans

And really loud music and cool strobe lights. Right? The perfect setting for someone to to casually walk past these dancing scantily-clad individuals, hiding a gun under a fancy coat, so that they can approach the gang leader that has a secret room in the back of the club… No, wait, I’m pretty sure that’s an episode of Burn Notice. Never mind.


People Smoking and Drinking

This is allowed in clubs, right? I’m not getting clubs confused with bars? You can drink in clubs, right?


Throwing Up

Cause they were drinking and dancing, so balance of probability says that they’re going to be throwing up.


That Hip Swivel-Dancing Thing

Swively hip dancing with a dance partner who has their hands on the dancer’s hips. I’m pretty sure people dance like that in clubs when they have a dance partner. Pretty sure. This gif is… kindaew. This is appropriate for my blog, right? Right? Eww.


People Trying to Hit on Each Other

Like a, “hey babe,” and a slide in beside you and put their arm around you kind of hitting on. Or a pull-in-to-the-hip-swivel-dance kind of thing. I would guess.


Everyone Wearing Sequins, Leather, and Animal Print. With Cut-Off Jeans. 

I would imagine.


Kissing Random People

Kissing random people is obviously something that happens at club parties.


How accurate was I? I absolutely know what I’m talking about, correct?


The Dilemma of Online Submissions and “Date Accessed”

Me when I have to submit something online or write what day I accessed a scholarly journal...

Me when I have to submit something online or write what day I accessed a scholarly journal…

Teachers get to know a lot. This, you see, is why they are teachers (probably). However, there are some things that I believe that teachers should NOT know– and by some things, I mean what day you did your homework on.

Homework is the responsibility of the student, and as long as they complete their assignments by their due dates then it should be all good.

Sometimes, homework is done days and days early.

Sometimes, homework is done over the weekend.

Sometimes it’s done the night before it’s due.

The point is, as long as the teacher gets it turned in on time, then it shouldn’t matter WHEN the student actually completed the homework. The teacher should just look at the homework and observe it based on its quality.

This isn’t the case, though.

Ever got annoyed when you have to submit something online? Then your teacher totally knows that you stayed up late the night before to submit it on time! Or that you finished the homework early and submitted it the second you got out of class! Or maybe you actually completed it early, but you forgot to submit it until last minute! Do teachers really need to know this?! I certainly don’t think so.

Worse, though, is the “Date Accessed” aspect of a Works Cited page or an Annotated Bibliography.

If I was a teacher, I would totally check the “Date Accessed” to figure out when my students actually did their research and cited it.

Do teachers actually do this?! I always imagine them scouring the final pages of my essays, thinking, hmmm, looks like she found this book last month but only found this journal article last night!

This could even change a teacher’s opinion of a student! A student might seem top-notch in class, but when a teacher discovers that he/she didn’t finish their homework until the night before it might change the teacher’s views of this person– even if it’s only on a subconcious level.

Because of this, I always just write the date that the homework is due as the “Date Accessed” because I feel like actual the date that I accessed something is private information. No one’s ever given me a hard time for doing this so far.

However, this can’t work when submitting something online. Sigh, sigh, sigh.

What do YOU think? Do you think that it’s okay for teachers to know when you completed your homework, or should that be something only the student knows? 

Excuse me while I go write a paper that needs to be submitted online before Tuesday…

The Igloo

Did you know that there is a display in the Art Gallery on the Catonsville campus that is decorated with winter-themed light art pieces?

I did, but I didn’t actually go and visit the notorious Igloo until yesterday– and then I was enlightened on why it is such a big deal to everyone — well, more like select individuals who keep going on about it– right now.

To whomever built the Igloo– excellent job, my friend; excellent job!

I mean, WOW. What a brilliant idea.

It is a cleverly designed dome made only of cut-up squares of box totes, zip ties, screws, and small lights set to some kind of time program. The Igloo changes colors in various patterns. It is an interactive display that students can actually go inside of! When I went there, a group of students were hanging out, playing music on a computer.

It’s absolutely gorgeous, in a cool, tech-y sort of way. It would be really cool to have one in my house! Or a giant one, and there could be a dance held in it.

A dance that I’d totally be dj-ing, of course, because partying is not my division.

“We always hang out here, but I guess the word is out about this place,” one said, “but I think it’s only up until Friday.”

Others expressed dismay regarding the future loss of the beloved Igloo.

“One day you’re going to turn a corner in the ARTS building,” I said in a serious voice, only half sarcastic, “and find the dismantled remains of the Igloo, all of the squares abandoned in a pile and…”

“Then I will take that home and re-build it, I f*cking swear!” the student replied.

People love the Igloo.

It’s not going be on display for much longer, so go check out the Igloo while you have a chance!

In Which I Have No Idea What to Post, So I Choose to Ramble

I have not posted anything this week yet! Unfortunately, I cannot think of anything clever to post, so I am going to ramble about myself as if someone would actually be interested in hearing about my week. Cause maybe someone would find that interesting… for insight into the life of a CCBC student. I dunno.

Why look, it’s me at Film Society. Cause I needed a photo to make this post semi-interesting.

I did some homework, including creating an annotated bibliography for a research project for my Film History class. This was quite a lot of work; fortunately I was able to print some resources in class so the research did not take unreasonably long. There was an event at CCBC hosted by the ASU celebrating the anniversary of the Star-Spangled Banner. It featured pizza and games and I KNOW that they took photographs– but I cannot find any of them on Facebook so apparently I will not be posting any pictures from this event at the time being.

I helped out with the College Gateway Program, leading some 8th grade students throughout CCBC. They seemed to have fun– although they were, like most Gateway Program visitors, impatient for food.  I also gave my almost-15-year-old brother a tour– he is likely going to be come a PEP student within the next few semesters– and allowed him to experience a day at CCBC.

Over the weekend I went to a 25th Anniversary celebration for the Taekwon-Do do-jang that I train with. I also watched a YouTube show that was recommended to me; it’s called The Guild and it was really, really good. Film Society is going to be doing a miniseries in a similar format to this show this semester.

This week, I will be on the CCBC campus every day of the week until Saturday! Wowza!



Film Society meeting!

Today was our first official Film Society meeting. The new president did a… decent job– That’s me by the way; HI! The meeting was entertaining and we have gotten things off to a great start. It was nice to see both old and new faces at the meeting and our new room, HTEC 100, has space enough to fit everyone in our growing club. Official elections for the Film Society “Council” take place next week, but those who plan on running for different positions did an excellent job taking initiative. We plan on shooting our first short film of the semester next week as well! I can tell this is going to be a fun semester. If you are interested in joining Film Society, stop by HTEC 100 next Tuesday at 3:oo PM– hope to see you there!

Awkward College Moments

At CCBC, most people are simply used to awkward things happening, so they probably don’t think that you are as awkward as YOU think you are when these things happen. Still, I think there are certain awkward moments that happen on our college campus that we all have experienced at least once– here is a list of some of them.


Were they actually gonna hug you or handshake or–oh

Heeeeeey…” you say, as someone you know approaches you, and you’re not sure if they’re going for a handshake or a hug or a fist bump and ohh, it’s a hug… nope, it was a fist bump. Oops. Or vice-versa. Awkward indeed.


When there’s no chairs left at the table

So you’re just standing there awkwardly, and then you end up going to another table and dragging over a chair so that you can sit with everyone else, or sitting on top of a table or something. Eeeeee.


Handshake or fist bump or that OTHER kind of handshake thingy FAIL

So they are moving their hand towards you and you know there are about 2 billion things that they could be trying to do in friendly greeting, and you end up doing none of them and fail in an epic manner. Then you try to play it cool and hope that they didn’t notice. Don’t kid yourself; they totally did.


When they try to cheat

“I didn’t do the assignment; can I look at yours?” No. No you may certainly NOT. You worked hard on your assignment; you don’t want them to cheat! Or, you are doing a test and they actually have the gall to peek at your paper. The nerve! What are they, eight? This is college! What are they doing?! Now you have to figure out how to stop them from cheating, and dang, is that awkward.


“What’s your major?”

ImanEnglishmajorbecauseIthinkthatwritingisareallybeneficiallifeskillandnoIdon’twanttobeanEnglishteacherbutIthink…” etc, etc. You have your response memorized at this point. The “what’s your major” conversation can turn into an “in defense of your major” speech instead of  a response to a friendly question.


Third wheel moments

Or fifth wheel, or seventh wheel, or whatever number wheel you are while everyone else talks and you’re just sitting there being awkward. You aren’t sure whether you should jump into the conversation or not, and now you are just kind of listening and hoping that someone pays attention to you. This is especially awkward if the other people are couples sitting on each others’ laps, or kissing.


Running into someone you don’t want to talk to

Dang, you really didn’t want to talk to that person, and ohh, there they are– time to bolt, time to bolt– crap, they saw you. Dang it.


One-on-one awkward silences

You were just talking about important stuff, and now that you’re done you are both just standing there staring at each other because you don’t know what to say. Chances are, it gets broken with a cautious “sooyeah,” and then a repeat of what you just confirmed several seconds before the awkward silence started.


Getting hit on

You were attempting to walk to the library, and someone makes a remark as you walk by. Ugh, now what do you do? Do you shoot back a quick, witty response or do you ignore them? Or maybe you are sitting down and someone approaches you and attempts to flirt, but you’re not interested. Awwwwwkward


Teachers calling on you when you didn’t raise your hand

You… you don’t KNOW. That’s why you didn’t raise your hand. You have nothing to say. Your hand wasn’t up. YOUR HAND WASN’T UP. Maybe teachers are trying to teach you to know to think on your feet.


Stepping over things to get to your seat

More awkward when you fail miserably and end up knocking something over. So much for looking casual as you tried to cooly step over that desk…


Running into someone you know… on the way to the bathroom

Now you have been sucked into a conversation, when really you just wanted to pee. Great.


Being ignored when someone you know walks by

Yeah, they obviously saw you and just kept walking. Fine. FINE.  Even a wave would’ve done…


Being late to class

The teacher absolutely saw you come in late, and you don’t have time to apologize because he/she is talking. Now they will never know that you were late because you were stuck in traffic or because your previous class got out late, you think. You sit down and attempt to look like you know what is going on, ashamed. Crapola.


When you didn’t do the reading/assignment

For some reason, you just didn’t know that it was due or you absolutely forgot. Now you are hoping beyond hope that it gets postponed until the next week. You are a good student, you swear! Noooooooo!


Waiting for your ride

You are just sitting around, waiting for your ride home. They are most likely late, and you are just sitting there, hoping nobody asks why you are just sitting there. Waiting for your ride shouldn’t be awkward, but for some reason it is.


 Accidentally walking in on a meeting/event you aren’t a part of

You didn’t KNOW there was an event going on in the BARN, and now you’ve just walked right into the middle of it and everyone is staring at you. You don’t want to be at this event! Now everyone is staring at you as you slowly slink out and then take off running before somebody invites you to attend said event. Oops.


What Where You Hang Out on the Catonsville Campus Says About You

My apologies to people who attend the Essex and Dundalk campuses or any of the extension centers– I am most familiar with the Catonsville campus myself, so this blog post only applies to Catonsville students ’cause I can’t account for the others.

Also recognize that this post is just for fun and cannot accurately predict personality traits of every last student who attends the Catonsville campus.


The BARN Lounge

You’re at the BARN with some friends for sure, probably sitting around one of the tables. Or standing up around some of the tables, cause some people who hang out in the BARN just like to stand up. You are a social person, but primarily with people that you already know well. Chances are you are working on a group project, a member of a club, or part of the Mentor program. You like spending time with friends and you also love the proximity of the vending machines to your table. You like chatting and eating food with your buddies, but you like that the BARN is quieter than some of the other places on campus.


The Cafeteria

There are two options for those of you who hang out in the Cafeteria. You are an extrovert who loves being loud and probably likes swearing a lot, too. You don’t care what anyone thinks, Sodexo food is delicious and you’ll eat it in the Cafeteria because the Cafeteria is the Cafeteria. You are subconciously attempting to be louder than all the other people in the Cafeteria. OR, you are an introvert who just wants to study, but because you are unfamiliar with the campus you’re just sitting in the Cafeteria, hating the loudness because you don’t know where else to sit.


Library Lounge

Or, Near the Einstein Bros. Or, The Lower Level Of the Library. I don’t actually know what this place is actually called; people I know just call it the Library and we all understand it to mean that one area in the library with the cozy chairs and tables. If you like to hang out in this part of the library, you probably have an unspoken rule with people you know that when you’re out of class, you are in the library. You always run into people you know here, and whether you are talkative or not you enjoy the relatively calm atmosphere of the library. You also find the Cafeteria to be slightly scary and attempt to avoid it at all costs. Chances are you also attempt to study in this part of the library, but get distracted by friends or food. You are clever and a bit quirky, and chances are you have been on campus for more than one semester.


Second Floor of the Library

You are here to be on the computers, quietly studying. Or getting distracted and going onto Facebook, but your original plan was to study. You don’t want to talk to anyone, you are here only to use the computers. You are here for the computers. The. Computers. You may be an older adult coming back to school using the computers for actual schoolwork, like they are *supposed* to be used for.


Third Floor of the Library

You are not studying, you are on the computers to watch YouTube. Or, you are here with friends to study in a group. Either way, you are still here for the computers again and most likely not getting much work done.


Study Rooms

There was actually a study that showed that when people study in groups, they get less work done. Biiiiiig surprise here. If you like to hang out in the study rooms, chances are there is a lot more chatting, laughing, and video watching than there is any studying going on. You may have also rented a study room to talk about something club or group project related, in which case something might actually get done. Maybe.


Walking Around Campus/A Bench Outside

You like being outside and are likely an on-the-go type of person. You might have a class to go to, or just got out of class. Walking around or being outside makes you feel more productive, and you like that. Sometimes you see someone you know and catch up to go walk with them, and then discover that really neither of you have anywhere to go and you are just walking around to walk around. If you are sitting on a bench, you are enjoying the quiet and are probably on your phone or talking with one or two friends. You know all the shortcuts to get around campus and the quickest way to each building.


Some Random Location

You found some random location where nobody else is sitting, and now you are alone. You are most likely doing this because you have studying to do and want to actually study without interruptions. You could also be doing this because you are lonely. If you see someone you know in some random location, it is sometimes tricky to determine whether they are there to BE alone or whether they FEEL alone. It’s probably best just to ask them. If you hang out in random locations, you either know the campus quite well or are very new.






Back at CCBC!

I got a Frozen Hot Chocolate!

Tuesday was the day of my first official classes at CCBC, and an unofficial Film Society meeting. It was nice to be back on a fully alive campus, students chatting and heading to classes and eating on a beautiful end-of-summer day. My classes are intriguing and yet again I’ve gotten good teachers. It’s fun walking around and running into people I haven’t seen since last semester. AND I bought a Frozen Hot Chocolate, cause those are delicious and I haven’t had one in ages. I have also started collecting a round two of Stuff CCBC Students Say for this semester, and I can tell you now that it is going to be incredibly amusing.

How are YOUR first weeks of classes going?